We are not called to bottle up our humanity and soldier on. We are to pour out our sorrows at His feet, and to take His yoke upon us. And best of all, He calls us to worship, to rejoice, and to praise when things go His way. He suffered for every last stinkin' one of us, regardless of our "odds", track record, or "qualities". I don't care who you are, where you've come from, or where you think you're going. God doesn't care if you've been in prison, sold others into slavery, broken every one of His commandments and every law of man. If you don't know Him, He wants you to. He wants to be real to you. Real, like the floor under your feet feels. Real, like seeing the smile on the face of the person you love best of all. Real, like hearing the voice of your best friend. And more real than anything you've ever known. The sacrifice is already made, perfect and whole. His blood was already spilt, His life already offered up, His triumphant resurrection complete. Please, don't just think you need to plant yourself in the middle of the mainstream, figure your work is done, all is well in Zion, and now just have to plug away placidly, filling the expectations of mortals. And don't waste another minute of your life looking for something else to fill the chasm inside. There's nothing on earth that's big enough to fill it. You've got to turn to Him--turn to Him and let Him fill that aching emptiness.
It's not easy. It takes the abandonment of your life's self-protective work, and often the rejection of the religious philosophies and scriptural interpretations of men you may have built your life upon. True doctrine will come through beautifully--but odds are you have traditions long-held and cherished to cut loose. Which can be scary. The familiar spirits assigned to you, that are comfortable with where you are, with who you are, and the limited influence you hold due to your own contentment with where you are, don't want you to grow. They don't want you to know God better, and will pull out all the stops (including scaring you thoroughly) to keep you away from further light and truth.
God doesn't use fear to control. He loves and entreats. If a doctrine scares you, it's probably time to examine it more closely, and pray about it again, and harder.
There's no thirst so sweet as the thirst for another thorough dousing in Jesus' oceanic love. No safety like the surrounding of His love. And no power like the faith that comes when you finally "get it" . . . finally begin understand, as much as a novice's mind can grasp, the true nature of the God you thought you knew all of these years.
He makes ALL things new.
He has, He does, and He will. Yesterday, today, and forevermore. Infinitely. Repeatedly. Always.
Praise God. :o)
(This was first posted a week or so ago, and I'm sorry to say that the writing was highly unrepresentative of the spirit in which it was offered. I've gone over it carefully now, and hope that the edits I've made help to convey the true state of my heart. God bless.)